Anticipatory Joy, Resilience, and Mourning DovesThis morning, my partner and I rushed to get ourselves settled in for the 10:45 am breakout session of the 2025 Cancer Survivorship Conference titled, The Psychological Impact of Cancer. But because time zones are my nemesis, it turned out…
shouldn’t i be putting away the dishesThis morning I was thinking again about a Facebook friend’s post. About how it’s the full moon today and about how I’ve too long left creative spirituality last on my list (so, you know, it doesn’t get done). Thanks to…
3 Things I Hate About CT ScansToday is another ct scan with contrast to see if that bastard Uterine Leiomyosarcoma (uLMS) has returned. And while I’m extraordinarily grateful to have health insurance and get these scans every three months because uLMS has a recurrence rate of…
I’m a Unicorn, Silly GooseWhen I came across an article in Coping magazine titled: How Expressive Writing Can Help You Heal, I couldn’t click on it fast enough. As both a writer and a creative journaler, words are a particularly powerful part of my…
Teenage Me Is Freaking Out I’m Writing AgainMondays are for co-working. It’s virtual, five of us coming together from various points on a map to spend a couple of hours working on our crafts. I miss sitting in coffee shops with other writers, all of us tap-tap-tapping…
Why Cancer Anxiety Brain Gotta Be So Rough…This morning I read an article in Coping magazine titled How to Embrace Living While Coping with Thoughts about Dying. I’ve recently had two new symptoms that might indicate my cancer has recurred. They might also be totally unconnected. The…
Watching Dune, Asking Important QuestionsThe other night I settled into my cozy corner on the couch to finally watch Dune: Part One. Many years earlier my mom dragged to the theater to see the 1980s version. The problem is I have a mother who…
Just Put Pen to Paper…I’ve been stuck about writing here again. Full of … angst? Fear? The general ick of knowing that people who wish you ill might be reading? I’m frustrated with myself for caring so much about what those types of people…
Hope’s a funny thing thoughNOTE: i’m going through some old files as I do a study on the science of resilience in the decade since I first scholastically studied it and came across this essay that was written during that time.* The caseworker’s cubicle…
No, self-care isn’t supposed to be about building a ‘better’ youIt’s about caring for the you that already and always existed. “You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.” ~Buddha I’ve been thinking a lot about self-care recently. Thinking about how it’s been turned…
Leaning Into Ease To Fight CancerThe last of my weekly cancer posts, at least for now… “It is a cancer.” The words no one wants to hear. The words I heard my gynecologist say to me on that late August afternoon have forever changed my…
Support Groups and HelpLinesTW: sexual assault, suicidal ideation Week 6: This past week was rough, yet also somehow still beautiful too. I guess that’s just life. I canceled therapy due to my exhaustion. I think I also might have canceled it as a…
